Day Sixty Eight

Stone City Iowa 

time is such a funny transition

i remember fishing under the bridge with my mom 

as a child i loved those moments with mom

peaceful intimate safe beautiful loving

sometimes 

i want to get lost in a moment

i want to dive into the depths of the experience for at least a lifetime

maybe more

i want to get lost in the beauty of the moment

experience 

beautiful pure perfect divine unconditional love

til 

boredom arrives

skipping and surfing

 from one superficial experience to another seems so pointless

going and coming 

from this dot to that dot without really connecting them 

it snowed today...

i am cleaning and organizing 

stuff 

so i can experience life without 

stuff

i want to be naked and free to be 

oneself

again 

as it seems i have been reliving the birthing cycle 

over and over and over 

again

even woke in the middle of the night 

and 

watched youtube videos of birthing

feeling it must be time to be born again

Wednesday January 17, 2012 

8:44 pm 

waiting.....

The Second Day

Day Two 

of being pregnant 

okay, you may think this is a weird concept

11.11.11.11 

encounter transforming a fifty nine year old male getting pregnant 

a conceptual miracle of transformation of ignorance into enlightenment 

'something' 

is inside me 

growing

a new life

i can feel it 

a concept, an idea, an illusion, a dream, 

a new way of living 

a new concept with oneself 

a new way for a simple minded man to attempt to understand the process of birth

and 

what women get to experience

the miracle of life

what is within me?

what has our encounter co-created?

i am feeling a new life within....

(thriving relationships)