Day Seven

Imagining

all the amazing changes woman's bodies go through

during nine months of being pregnant

how could we men ever comprehend such a transformation

seems the only change we can ever transcend 

is our own 

ignorance  and stupidity

and that seldom seems to happen

so many life altering issues concerning education today

how do you shift ONES' consciousness 

to being 

awakened and enlightened

all seems so 

simple and easy 

for the 

ONE PERCENT

of the 

'enlightened ones'

to start the dance

Occupy Oneself

Day Six

The Fruit of Life

delicious vi-licious

what life grows within that wants so much to flourish

in a new world of peace

complete freedom

and 

unconditional love 

so much of me

wants to die to give room for new life

and 

a new world

Day Five

feeling 'the seed' of unbounded joy

start to play with my soul 

THRIVING

on the trust that love conquers all 

forever and ever

ran into

Billy Lee 

(his birthday wish is to find someone that would like to produce his world tour.) 

at 

Barnes and Noble

his big birthday today

loved listening to his whimsical wisdom

then 

The Beloved 

appeared 

to 

play with me and toss me about 

my mistress, my wife, my playmate, my devilish devi, my soulmate, 

in giving all we have to offer to 

The Beloved One

in all

 that matters

'that's what happens' 

that's what is

day five 

of being 

pregnant 

for the very first time 

Day Four

transitioning through 

layers and layers 

of 

depression

as all sense of creation leaves the ego

for the new life within

feeling a new sense of truth growing within

Day Three

280 days 40 weeks

is there anymore pure magic 

than two cells becoming 

an individual unique miraculous creative beautiful genius

the amazing mystery of it all

I will never forget the day in September when I was meditating 

in the sacred sculpture near highway one 

between

 Iowa City and Solon 

when standing on the center of the sculpture 

"i" 

manifested two perfect rainbows 

right in front of me

it seemed so magical so beautiful so awesome

now that i'm pregnant 

what could possibly compare

feeling the beauty within 

starting to take form 

feeling the common bond 

the source of all life 

the common connection with the creator

I have gone silent, listening for creations voice

our common bond 

our common dance

The Second Day

Day Two 

of being pregnant 

okay, you may think this is a weird concept

11.11.11.11 

encounter transforming a fifty nine year old male getting pregnant 

a conceptual miracle of transformation of ignorance into enlightenment 

'something' 

is inside me 

growing

a new life

i can feel it 

a concept, an idea, an illusion, a dream, 

a new way of living 

a new concept with oneself 

a new way for a simple minded man to attempt to understand the process of birth

and 

what women get to experience

the miracle of life

what is within me?

what has our encounter co-created?

i am feeling a new life within....

(thriving relationships)

11.11.11.11

11.11. 11.11.....

something magical happened in the moment of our embrace.....i became pregnant. i am keeping THE CHILD. i expect NOTHING from you. i just wanted you to know my condition. 

forever in your loving embrace is how i will proceed in life...i am excited and full of extreme joy that god has given me this opportunity to nurture and bring into this world your ....our child. 

over flowing with pure gratitude in the beautiful pure perfect love within me......i am so FULL......pelodom.