Day Eighteen

Double Peace

into the depths of the subconscious i dive 

to make peace with all the programs and meta programs running my life

negative and positive

equally taking charge

clear blue skies over head clear blue skies within 

empty and clear 

of

 subconscious illusions

a deep deep breath reaching to the depths of the heart 

here the beloved making love to the beloved

beautiful pure perfect love 

paradise utopia 

consciously exhaling consciously 

observing the observer

exhaling 

integrating 

the primitive urges and desires with the highest aspects of being oneself

pure consciousness

connecting everything with all that is 

now

the breath of the beloved breathing intently 

beautiful pure perfect love

through the heart of reality 

into the heart of oneself

blessings 

Day Seventeen

Coming Together

in 

sweet harmony

feeling the oneness

knowing the one breath 

of 

Ki Maah

remembering to remember 

the sweet sweet harmony of being in the womb

floating effortlessly 

growing exponentially

in the 

oneness 

breathing

the key to making peace with all one's addictions

breathing 

the key to traveling throughout the universes

breathing

the key to being oneself again and again and again

gratitude 

O Beloved 

of making today feel more like christmas than ever before

the child at play

Day Sixteen

Embracing 

The Source 

of all 

ADDICTIONS

mastering the art of KNOWING how to breath

via 

Ki Maah

being oneself 

within the dance 

of

The Beloved

everything changes accordingly 

master 

THE ONE

addiction 

how orgasmic...breathing becomes 

being pregnant is rapture

day sixteen

EVERYTHING CHANGING 

everyone empowered

Day Fifteen

Black Friday 

maybe being really really depressed 

is normal for the day

haven't ventured outside 

'the home' 

concentrating 

on quality

 one on one

 time 

with my twelve year old son

the beloved one

he wishes he was shopping

 with mom and her new boyfriend 

at 

Sam's Club

shopping anywhere

Black Friday 

dealing 

with the

 addiction of poverty 

having nothing to buy anything

hugging my son 

over and over and over 

love love love 

how actually does it work anymore?

listening 

to the counselor at the 

online 

crisis chat

but no one showed up to listen

Black Friday 

Day Fourteen

The Truth is Within 

left home as was not invited for the family thanksgiving dinner

wondering where my family is anymore

went  to Barnes and Noble and wrote a book

"the authentic game" 

it felt good

traveled down highway One

to 

the Ki Maah Sculpture 

and 

meditated a new meditation 

on giving pleasure to mother earth

tickling her fancy 

through and through 

100 X 100 X 100 

orgasmic strokes 

during dream time 

she gave me a hundred wishes 

my first was to be 

the beloved making love to the beloved 

through out the day through out the night 

Giving Thanks 

for 

THE DAY

sunny sunny 

warm blue skies 

blue skies inward matching the blue skies outward

manifesting all wishes passed on 

ninety nine more wishes to ponder

the authentic game of life 

the beloved making love to the beloved 

with everyone and everything 

between us

fulfilling

The Space 

of 

Beautiful Pure Perfect Love 

surrounding us all

slept in the sculpture

wrapped 

in the red blanket and the white buffalo blanket

happiness radiating from the pleasure of being oneself

Ki Maah 

the cosmic egg has been shattered 

the new life within awaits confirmation 

happy happy happy 

thanksgiving 

to all

 my family everywhere 

The Beloved One 

awakens

in my arms

Day Thirteen

The Cosmic Egg 

Thirteen was my dad's lucky number

the number he wore on his baseball jersey as he pitched game after game

he was a master of being in the flow of his game 

WE had a large meeting yesterday of Makiah's educational team

nine teachers and administrators

two parents

and many many missing mentors and other team players

what to do with Makiah?

was the issue

Mount Vernon Middle School 

doesn't seem to have the educational answers 

so down highway 30 to Clearance Iowa he is to be sent 

maybe a better educational match

My dad died a long time ago, but is always present in my life and Makiah's life

seems he showed up today to give us a gift concerning how to play the game

The Gift 

hoping Makiah's Team can all get on the same page of playing The ultimate game 

the authentic game 

the only game that really matters in life 

Listening to the Cosmic Egg within leads to everyone playing on the same field

love and happiness

Day 12

Education is such The Issue

LISTENING

 to the heart of oneself

deeper deeper deeper 

into the heart 

here the power within the wisdom sings out 

listen 

for if you don't listen who will 

LISTENING 

to the child within 

as without

the only real key and meaning of education

LISTENING

nine experts gathered today

what to do with 

The Beloved One

????????????????

a world of experts poised to listen to the wisdom 

of 

The Beloved One 

happiness and love 

were all that was perceived

what box do we have for that goal of being educated

move to Bhutan and be the Tantra Master 

life is hilarious as hilarious can be

because education is such a joke 

LISTENING 

for the wisdom in the words 

in the silence in the smiles in the actions