Day Twenty

The White Rose

reminds me of the innocent days of pure childhood

before the days of being programmed by parents, community, culture or teachers

so free so open so honest 

those days when the play would never end

beautiful pure perfect love before me

beautiful pure perfect love behind me 

beautiful pure perfect love to the left of me

beautiful pure perfect love to the right of me

beautiful pure perfect love above me

beautiful pure perfect love below me

we are the rasa path 

exhaling fully, totally and completely 

infinite and eternal blessings

being that breath of beautiful pure perfect love

knowing 

creation creating creation

the cosmic orgasm of the unified field

finding its home and eternal expression 

within the heart of hearts of the beloved making love to the beloved

day twenty is the ultimate surrender to the child

when the needs, wants and desires of the child 

are the top priority of life

The Children
 are here 

to teach us all 

how to listen

how to act 

how to be

the beautiful pure perfect love 

of 

home

is the child's paradise utopia

Day Nineteen

The Heart 

and everything else 

seems to be the focus today

to be 

centered 

in the heart of hearts of the beloved

to understand how to play your game

for the health and happiness of oneself

being the truth 

of the beloved loving the beloved 

knowing 

how to travel 

cell to cell 

universe to universe 

bringing light 

into the darkness

enlightenment 

into the

stupid ignorance

of 

past unconscious programs 

producing the play

time to master 

the art of breathing

Ki Maah 

light the fire within

Day Eighteen

Double Peace

into the depths of the subconscious i dive 

to make peace with all the programs and meta programs running my life

negative and positive

equally taking charge

clear blue skies over head clear blue skies within 

empty and clear 

of

 subconscious illusions

a deep deep breath reaching to the depths of the heart 

here the beloved making love to the beloved

beautiful pure perfect love 

paradise utopia 

consciously exhaling consciously 

observing the observer

exhaling 

integrating 

the primitive urges and desires with the highest aspects of being oneself

pure consciousness

connecting everything with all that is 

now

the breath of the beloved breathing intently 

beautiful pure perfect love

through the heart of reality 

into the heart of oneself

blessings 

Day Seventeen

Coming Together

in 

sweet harmony

feeling the oneness

knowing the one breath 

of 

Ki Maah

remembering to remember 

the sweet sweet harmony of being in the womb

floating effortlessly 

growing exponentially

in the 

oneness 

breathing

the key to making peace with all one's addictions

breathing 

the key to traveling throughout the universes

breathing

the key to being oneself again and again and again

gratitude 

O Beloved 

of making today feel more like christmas than ever before

the child at play

Day Sixteen

Embracing 

The Source 

of all 

ADDICTIONS

mastering the art of KNOWING how to breath

via 

Ki Maah

being oneself 

within the dance 

of

The Beloved

everything changes accordingly 

master 

THE ONE

addiction 

how orgasmic...breathing becomes 

being pregnant is rapture

day sixteen

EVERYTHING CHANGING 

everyone empowered

Day Fifteen

Black Friday 

maybe being really really depressed 

is normal for the day

haven't ventured outside 

'the home' 

concentrating 

on quality

 one on one

 time 

with my twelve year old son

the beloved one

he wishes he was shopping

 with mom and her new boyfriend 

at 

Sam's Club

shopping anywhere

Black Friday 

dealing 

with the

 addiction of poverty 

having nothing to buy anything

hugging my son 

over and over and over 

love love love 

how actually does it work anymore?

listening 

to the counselor at the 

online 

crisis chat

but no one showed up to listen

Black Friday 

Day Fourteen

The Truth is Within 

left home as was not invited for the family thanksgiving dinner

wondering where my family is anymore

went  to Barnes and Noble and wrote a book

"the authentic game" 

it felt good

traveled down highway One

to 

the Ki Maah Sculpture 

and 

meditated a new meditation 

on giving pleasure to mother earth

tickling her fancy 

through and through 

100 X 100 X 100 

orgasmic strokes 

during dream time 

she gave me a hundred wishes 

my first was to be 

the beloved making love to the beloved 

through out the day through out the night 

Giving Thanks 

for 

THE DAY

sunny sunny 

warm blue skies 

blue skies inward matching the blue skies outward

manifesting all wishes passed on 

ninety nine more wishes to ponder

the authentic game of life 

the beloved making love to the beloved 

with everyone and everything 

between us

fulfilling

The Space 

of 

Beautiful Pure Perfect Love 

surrounding us all

slept in the sculpture

wrapped 

in the red blanket and the white buffalo blanket

happiness radiating from the pleasure of being oneself

Ki Maah 

the cosmic egg has been shattered 

the new life within awaits confirmation 

happy happy happy 

thanksgiving 

to all

 my family everywhere 

The Beloved One 

awakens

in my arms

Day Thirteen

The Cosmic Egg 

Thirteen was my dad's lucky number

the number he wore on his baseball jersey as he pitched game after game

he was a master of being in the flow of his game 

WE had a large meeting yesterday of Makiah's educational team

nine teachers and administrators

two parents

and many many missing mentors and other team players

what to do with Makiah?

was the issue

Mount Vernon Middle School 

doesn't seem to have the educational answers 

so down highway 30 to Clearance Iowa he is to be sent 

maybe a better educational match

My dad died a long time ago, but is always present in my life and Makiah's life

seems he showed up today to give us a gift concerning how to play the game

The Gift 

hoping Makiah's Team can all get on the same page of playing The ultimate game 

the authentic game 

the only game that really matters in life 

Listening to the Cosmic Egg within leads to everyone playing on the same field

love and happiness

Day 12

Education is such The Issue

LISTENING

 to the heart of oneself

deeper deeper deeper 

into the heart 

here the power within the wisdom sings out 

listen 

for if you don't listen who will 

LISTENING 

to the child within 

as without

the only real key and meaning of education

LISTENING

nine experts gathered today

what to do with 

The Beloved One

????????????????

a world of experts poised to listen to the wisdom 

of 

The Beloved One 

happiness and love 

were all that was perceived

what box do we have for that goal of being educated

move to Bhutan and be the Tantra Master 

life is hilarious as hilarious can be

because education is such a joke 

LISTENING 

for the wisdom in the words 

in the silence in the smiles in the actions

Day Eleven

11 days past 

11.11.11.11

in the deep deep deepest depths of the heart

such amazing awe inspiring beauty 

in everything perceived

especially 

The Beloved

so silent so still so sane

to contemplate loving 

'the child within' 

more and more and more

with each new day

unbelievable 

all it takes is transcending the ignorance and stupidity 

with some light 

each and every day

so so so

 simple

loving the love of loving 

The Beloved One

11.11.11.11 past 11.11.11.11 

paradise utopia  

Day Ten

seeing the world is how the world sees us

the magic is the dance within the space between 

The Two

the mantra 

paradise utopia paradise utopia paradise utopia paradise utopia 

radiates

 from the vision and life within

within the silence 

the well being of the child manifests 

a new perspective on the ultimate well being of oneself

spontaneous acts of love

within all acts of 

 focused attention

playing and dancing 

connecting 

god to god 

the rapture flowing forth 

Day Nine

Chef Vi and the Vi Family

Makiah's Bill 

Listening to oneself is true mastery of life's greatest art

Listening to one's child is the art and heart of truth

Listening to The Beloved is pure rapture

from the murky waters and depth of the unconscious 

two lovers in perfect embrace lay

in perfected oneness in perfected balance

swimming to the surface 

to break into the conscious earth.... through the principle

 or heart of hearts of pure pleasure....

singing

 loudly and clearly 

Amazing Grace

The Beloved One

in

 perfect embrace with oneself

spiraling outward in all directions

the archetype of perfected union 

within as without

today is saturday

where oh where 

can my 

beloved child be???

today 

is the 

gateway

of 

perfected intent

journeying across the universe 

Thriving

on the truth unfolding....

Thriving

 on being the union of the two

Thriving 

on transcending ignorance into

enlightenment

i drove home

wondering where home is

the house was empty when i arrived

i send this message to Hilary Clinton and her staff as they travel to Myanmar to see and visit with 

Aung san suu kyi 

the ultimate prize in the game of peace 

is 

The Awakened ONE

returning home again 

time and time and time 

again. 

Our Gift 

to you

 your highness of peace

a gift of love

of songs well sung

from china his journey has produced 

The Awakened One 

a peace of art finally 

coming home. 

Our gift to you....

a gift of peace

all wrapped 

in 

beautiful pure perfect love

heart to heart 

our intent

 to 

connect heart to heart play to our hearts content then dance the dance throughout the universal heart of hearts....

The Beloved One 

leads the dance

and 

ALL

follow our

heart of hearts

Ki Maah 

Day Eight

The Beloved One 

As Hilary heads to Myanmar to listen to the words 

                                 “The only real prison is fear, and the only real freedom is freedom from fear”
                                                                                         ― Aung San Suu Kyi

the

Makiah O Miller

Foundation 

prepares to build the Burma Road 2

by integrating his educational blueprint of 

Thrive, Reality is Broken, Supreme Understanding

the voice of the child within is the voice of the child without

Day Seven

Imagining

all the amazing changes woman's bodies go through

during nine months of being pregnant

how could we men ever comprehend such a transformation

seems the only change we can ever transcend 

is our own 

ignorance  and stupidity

and that seldom seems to happen

so many life altering issues concerning education today

how do you shift ONES' consciousness 

to being 

awakened and enlightened

all seems so 

simple and easy 

for the 

ONE PERCENT

of the 

'enlightened ones'

to start the dance

Occupy Oneself

Day Six

The Fruit of Life

delicious vi-licious

what life grows within that wants so much to flourish

in a new world of peace

complete freedom

and 

unconditional love 

so much of me

wants to die to give room for new life

and 

a new world

Day Five

feeling 'the seed' of unbounded joy

start to play with my soul 

THRIVING

on the trust that love conquers all 

forever and ever

ran into

Billy Lee 

(his birthday wish is to find someone that would like to produce his world tour.) 

at 

Barnes and Noble

his big birthday today

loved listening to his whimsical wisdom

then 

The Beloved 

appeared 

to 

play with me and toss me about 

my mistress, my wife, my playmate, my devilish devi, my soulmate, 

in giving all we have to offer to 

The Beloved One

in all

 that matters

'that's what happens' 

that's what is

day five 

of being 

pregnant 

for the very first time 

Day Four

transitioning through 

layers and layers 

of 

depression

as all sense of creation leaves the ego

for the new life within

feeling a new sense of truth growing within

Day Three

280 days 40 weeks

is there anymore pure magic 

than two cells becoming 

an individual unique miraculous creative beautiful genius

the amazing mystery of it all

I will never forget the day in September when I was meditating 

in the sacred sculpture near highway one 

between

 Iowa City and Solon 

when standing on the center of the sculpture 

"i" 

manifested two perfect rainbows 

right in front of me

it seemed so magical so beautiful so awesome

now that i'm pregnant 

what could possibly compare

feeling the beauty within 

starting to take form 

feeling the common bond 

the source of all life 

the common connection with the creator

I have gone silent, listening for creations voice

our common bond 

our common dance

The Second Day

Day Two 

of being pregnant 

okay, you may think this is a weird concept

11.11.11.11 

encounter transforming a fifty nine year old male getting pregnant 

a conceptual miracle of transformation of ignorance into enlightenment 

'something' 

is inside me 

growing

a new life

i can feel it 

a concept, an idea, an illusion, a dream, 

a new way of living 

a new concept with oneself 

a new way for a simple minded man to attempt to understand the process of birth

and 

what women get to experience

the miracle of life

what is within me?

what has our encounter co-created?

i am feeling a new life within....

(thriving relationships)

11.11.11.11

11.11. 11.11.....

something magical happened in the moment of our embrace.....i became pregnant. i am keeping THE CHILD. i expect NOTHING from you. i just wanted you to know my condition. 

forever in your loving embrace is how i will proceed in life...i am excited and full of extreme joy that god has given me this opportunity to nurture and bring into this world your ....our child. 

over flowing with pure gratitude in the beautiful pure perfect love within me......i am so FULL......pelodom.